My camera is sickly

I was supposed to take pictures for a wedding this weekend. Not the actual wedding itself, but the rehearsal and dinner, and then while the bride is getting dressed. On Sunday I was checking out my memory cards trying to get a number on what I should shoot the pictures in, and how many pictures I was going to be able to take without taking some off and putting them on my laptop. And then, disaster struck. I'm not certain how, but when I took one of the memory cards out it bent one of the prongs inside. The camera would not even come on after that. My friend's "oh so handy" husband has had it since Sunday night, he nearly assures me that he can fix it. No word yet on it's condition, I'm guessing he hasn't had a chance to look at it. He says he'll probably have to take it apart to fix it. But since he's an engineer I figure he can handle it. He knows I need it back by Friday night, so maybe he'll work on it tonight to give back to me at church tomorrow night. I really hope he can get it to work. It figures that my first real chance to take some meaningful pictures and my camera is sick.

I bought some boots this weekend that I really liked. Until somebody said "Oh yeah, those are just like soandso's." Now I don't want them. I'm considering returning them and if anybody asks I will just say "Oh I wore them once and they didn't feel good" or something like that. They're the sort of funky boots that you don't want anybody else to have them. Plus, people sort of talk about the way this girl dresses lol So I don't want to have boots like her.

Cold weather brings out the Martha in me

Yep...that's right. I'm now officially a gifted Chicken and Dumplings maker too. It's quite simple and makes GREAT leftovers. I've made it twice and this time tasted better then the last time...I wonder how good it'll be 5 times from now?? I'd say my recipe rivals my mom's chicken and dumplings on tastiness. Is it possible that I'll turn out to be a better cook then she? That'd be awesome cause she's pretty good.

I don't know if anybody reads this at all anymore, but if you are out there. Please pray for me. I have a huge issue to come across my path, perhaps the largest and most important one in my life so far. Whether it is part of this journey I have decided to take on, I'm not certain, but it could be. That is what I have to figure out. If what I am feeling is God's will or if I am trying to avoid something. I'm nearly positive it is not the latter, but I am not 100% certain if it's God's will or not, mainly because not enough time has passed to be sure. I've only been thinking about it for a few days. But I do know that something has to change.

I am currently eating cheesy potato soup. That I made. From scratch.

It's quite tasty too!!! I'm proud of me.

I applied online for a nanny job in my town. It would be full time and $10 an hour. We shall see!!

On a side note...I think my sister might be pregnant. In case you are wondering, no she isn't married. I'm not 100% certain but she seems to be putting on some weight in some key areas, eating differently and acting differently. She also was very interested in a girl at our church who is pregnant over the weekend...asking questions she normally would not have. I started thinking it back on Winter Retreat weekend when she made a comment quite loudly that she was late. I think she might have been testing the waters for a reaction. It's almost been a month now since then and I had already been thinking it then, that she might be. We shall see and I will keep this posted when I learn more.

Who needs a job anyway?

So, I have been on probation at work for about 4 months now (It's a 6 month sentence) but today I received an email stating that last week I cashed an $80 check for a man when on his account was *clearly* a note stating not to cash those checks for him. The only thing I can think of, is that I simply looked at the wrong check when seeing if the check was off the bank they had specified, because I know that I've read the note on that account many many many times because this man comes in there all the time. Normally, this would not be any sort of punishment at all, they would just pull you into the office and tell you to be more careful, since it's only $80. However, since I am already on probration this puts a different spin on things. When you are on probation anything over $20 is handled differently. I don't know if they will just slap my wrist, give me 3 days off without pay, or fire me. Honestly any of the above is possible. If they have been trying to figure out a way to rid of me, this will be their perfect opportunity. However they had the opportunity to fire me when I made the initial mistake that put me on probation to begin with and they did not. So perhaps just 3 days unpaid will be what I get. Although I prefer just a slap on the wrist lol but I seriously doubt I'll be that lucky unless God just intervenes. Oh man, I just lost internet connection. It's so fickle...although I'm stealing it so can I complain? Back to my job issue...I was in Walmart tonight and I thought...ya know, I can always come back to Walmart. I've worked there before and it wasn't to bad. Less stressful that's for sure, even if I would have to stand all day which I am sooo not used to doing haha I just know that Walmart is a place I could go to and most likely have a job within like 2 or 3 days.

We have a revival scheduled in March with Bro Narlock and I am quite pleased about this. I only just heard him preach last weekend or so and he was wayyyy awesome.

Okay my internet is back so I shall post quickly!!

I know it is going to appear that this post along with the previous two were posted on the same day, but they were not. A few days seperates each one, but due to some internet issues among other issues, I have posted them on the same day even though they were written on different days.

My supervisor at work, tends to have one person who she adores, and one person that she despises and therefore picks on constantly. I have never been the one she adores, which is fine by me. I have however, been the one she despises. I was until a new girl transfered from another branch and it became her. But she complained about her, and our supervisor got into trouble for treating her so poorly and she apologized to her. Unfortunately, I can feel her gaze shifting back to me. When you are her least favorite, pretty much anything you do is wrong. For instance, she was saying the other day that she has "actually seen somebody writing personal emails with mail to be done sitting on their desk" Um, yeah that was me. However, what she chooses not to see is that I had already ran about 50 pieces of mail (this would mean when somebody mails in a deposit or loan payment) and was going cross eyed so I decided to stop for a minute and email somebody before going back to it. Also, she doesn't see that I NEVER leave mail to be done the next day, where others do. They don't say anything they just set it in the back before they leave and never tell anyone what they've done. Yesterday she decided that she didn't want my jacket hanging from the back of my chair. She didn't say anything to me at all about it, just as she walked by she grabbed my jacket and took it with her and hung it in her office. I didn't say anything to her about it either. I will try very very hard to "turn the other cheek" while she makes me her despised one. It is common knowledge that she always has somebody she hates. Her favorite right now, who we refer to as the "golden child" is somebody that absolutely everybody cannot stand. Nobody quite knows why either, she is just one of those people that you automatically can't stand. She never leaves work on time, if she is supposed to leave at 4PM we're lucky if she's gone when we lock the doors at 5PM. She just fiddles around doing junk...all while getting paid. She calls in late at least once a week and never gets in trouble. I am supposed to be at work at 7:45AM and my boss told me that "this clocking in at 7:46AM and 7:47AM just is NOT going to cut it" Which I do understand the importance of being on time, however since I am the one she is currently despising, I will not ever do anything good enough. So while I am struggling to be extra careful to be perfectly on time, be extra careful that there is absolutely no work to be done before I send an email to somebody...my coworkers are late and playing on Myspace all day long, and texting their friends. Am a jealous? Yeah a little bit I suppose. I prefer to be neither the despised or the Golden Child. I would rather be somewhere in between, flying below the radar. However, I come off probation in March and after that I can post out if any jobs come available. So long as I manage to stay off probation that is. I seem to have a difficult time doing that...once I come off it something happens and I end up right back on it again. I don't want to leave the credit union, but I do want to have a different job.

Okay, so enough about work...

I am 1.5 weeks into my new spiritual diet. I would like to say that things are fantastically wonderful and that church is awesome and all of that. In reality I got up last night and walked out on my pastor because I did not agree with what he was preaching about. He went off on a tangent about how playing poker with the chips will send you to Hell because if you play that, then soon you'll be going to the casino. Yes, I do understand what he was saying...but it was the manner he was expressing it in. He went on for about 15 minutes before I had had enough and went to the bathroom. I was not the only person thoroughly in disagreement with him. Not long after I got up our Youth Leaders wife came in there after me. Towards the end of church I went back out and found 6 or 7 people in the hallway because they did not want to listen to him anymore either. I'm talking Sunday School Teachers, and the person who lead the service was out there too...not just people who come half the time or anything like that. I want to go to church to learn and be taught about the bible. Not to go to bible study to listen to him ramble on about junk. The whole thing came because he heard that another church was playing poker with the chips. He doesn't know that at our Youth Christmas party we played Texas Hold 'em with the chips. We want to go to church and learn about the bible. I want to go and be taught proper ways to pray and reach God, I want to go to church and be encouraged. Last week he said none of us had any business being in the mall because of all the "freaks" and that we should all be in bed by 9PM at night. So...you see what he is doing? He is preaching against things that are riduculous and at no time is he teaching us about the bible. My pastor is 72 years old, and quite honestly, I think it is time he retire. I am getting no teaching at church whatsoever unless our Youth Pastor preaches, and so I have resorted to listening to preaching online. It is the only source of nourishment I am receiving. Our Youth Pastor says the same thing. The problem is...what about the people who aren't quite that dedicated? If the only teaching they are getting is at church, then they aren't getting fed at all.